Creative Suicide

Well everyone,  It’s been awhile since I’ve talked to you.  I feel like I owe you an update, but that is the problem with why I don’t post.  I sit down to write what has happened in the last 5 months,  get three paragraphs in, and decide it’s time to go work on homework or take a nap. So I am going to try and tell you what is going on NOW, and in the near future.  I am very disapointed in myself:

I haven’t done anything creative in months.  I read like 14 webcomics daily.. I think to myself.  I could do this.. if I had any talent whatsoever.   I am very  disapointed, I wanted to spend this semester doing more writing… I wanted to spend this whole year really exploring the edges of my talent. 

I have gained nearly 30 lbs since getting married and leaving the marine corps.  I am REALLY out of shape, and can’t seem to run from here to there without collapsing.  (quote from “a few good men”.)  None of my old Larges fit me..  and once again.. it KILLS ME to run.. something I used to love doing. 

I have come to only one conclusion with my self hatred in these regards.  I am confessing to each and every one of you, and extending an invitation as well.  I am DONE with this.   I have a resolution, and I have a determination, and a goal in mind.  (yes I have all 3).   They are as follows:

           1.  I am going to run the Arizona Rock & Roll Marathon on January 18, 2009.I am going to run 4 miles a day until I can do so without walking,  then I am going to do it until I like doing it.   Then I am going to run 6 miles a day as well.   (at least 5 days a week) 

           2.  I am inviting Russ, Steven, or pretty much anyone else I’m related to (who thinks they can do it) to come join me.  I will host you in my home, and I will pay your way in ((but you have to get yourself to San Diego or Yuma, for me to pick you up 🙁     ))

           3.  I am going to lose 20 lbs before the marathon.  I do not know my exact weight right now.. but you will be informed soon, as I track my weight progress.

           4.  I am going to be giving up video games for the entire month of November.  I will be participating in National Novel Writing Month.   This is going to be a major challenge, and I’m told that most won’t finish,  I am going to try and beat the odds.   I invite Steven, or anyone else who desires to join me, and we will read each other’s books after we are done.

I can feel you all cheering me on already :-),  I just hope some of you will cheer me on… while WE are doing it.  *cough* Steven *cough*  Russell *cough*

 Let me know by Nov the 15th (I think)  Then the price goes up.   

  Thank you all,  and Russ I’m sorry for not getting back to all your comments.  I always told myself that I would do it later.. but later never got here.